Basically i was on "holiday" for the least week if thats what you can call it...

It was a holiday doing the Stockport Ring up near Birmingham in longboats. The weather was crappy and wet, and every night after the central heating in the boat went off, the entire boat turned into one long 2 tone icicle. I did learn one thing however; I cant drive boats.... at all. They are very odd, My train of thought when i was driving the damn thing was, ooooh la di-da! look at the nice birdies.... oh shit there is the side of the canal right in front of me! Turn! Turn? Why isn't it Turning!!!!!! oh now its turning! great! now to centralize it.... why is it still turning? damn there is other bank! -Crash-

so umm not the best at the whole boat driving lark..... Its an interesting experience i'll tell you that... a slow experience... as the boats will only do basically .... 5 MPS, walking speed or maybe slightly slower. It took us a week to do the whole 107 mile ring which had ALOT of locks in it, including the tallest lock it britain.... oooooh the excitement mounts U_U

Riiiiiight elo all

Glad to say that my gut is back on track so some good news there.

Currently college is going quite strong, although i have a huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge mountain of overdue work to hand in and not alot of time to do it.

One thing however that i am quite happy about is that i have done my first flash thing ^^

albeit shite, i am still happy i made one, I know its just insane but thats just me, its for my multimedia unit for college and my tutor is looking at me wierdly after this

One thing however that i am having to make a big decicion on is Uni, basically i was going to defer a year so i can get my transition on track, but the course that i SERIOUSLY want to do (Japanese Language + Contempory Society and Software Engineering) isnt avalable for entry in 2009, so i have to either undefer and just hope i am able to pass now, or take a slightly different course.

*sigh* decicions decicions...

WELL! Yesterday was interesting, and a series of ups and downs.

down: i read the appointment card wrong and as it happens my appointment was at 3 rather than 1. My fault. *slaps self*

up: despite what i was told by the therapist, i was actually referred to the charring cross adult clinic, which as i found out was a bloody good thing, when i asked the consultant, he told me that if i had indeed been referred to the child clinic, i would have had to wait another 4 months until being referred to the adult clinic! lucky mistake huh?

down: after a relatively awkward talk with the consultant answering questions like" have you ever felt and sexual arousment in women's cloths, I had to give a blood test. now i knew i would have to have given one at some point, but i didn't realize it would be right away, and for those who don't know, things like needles, injections and stuff are actually my biggest phobia in the whole world. I damn nearly fainted during the process, and was a little dizy afterwards ah well, tis needed i guess.

Up: after it all was done, i went to have some time in London town just buying a new set of clothes and stuff to celebrate, got a nice purple top (fave colour) and a new coat and ear-rings. all in all, quite good.

DOWN: upon arriving home i was totally zonked at only around 6 pm, climbed into bed and fell asleep, i had had a curry at an indian place a few nights previous and i think i ay have contacted food poisoning or something as i woke up several times during the night to puke and make a couple of nasty bowl movements. been in bed since an it is now almost 5 -_- meh being ill is not fun


anyway, at least i am happy that things are finally beginning to move forward, although i always did imagine that by the time i was 18 i thought i would be living full time and stuff, oh well, i was told by the consultant that after i leave college in a couple of months time and start living full time, i can begin the testosterone blockers which is good. although my main point of action is to get rid of this nasty tummy bug >.<

well, tomorrow at 1pm, Things finally get properly started.

Its taken me 3 years to actually where i want to be. and to be frank, i am sick and tired of waiting because the NHS likes to practice negligence towards young trans people.

I was 15 when i get referred to a local child therapist from my GP. As i was almost 16, i was SUPPOSED to be refereed directly to the gender specialist clinic, however, instead i was forced to wait THREE YEARS before finally getting referred -_- which of course ment more waiting. but finally, this waiting has come to an end and it comes to an end at 1pm tomorrow afternoon.

HOWEVER! i may be in store for more waiting as i was referred to the Travistock clinic which is ment for those 18 or younger, i am 18 so i dont know what will happen. If it terns out they wont have me, it means waiting again for the Charring cross clinic which unfortunately has a longer list as its an adult clinic. any way, best of luck to me i guess

at the very least i want to walk away from this with some testosterone blockers

I have just updated Dark Days with the first page ^^ i will also post it here as it is a cover page, and it will also be part of the character bio pages when i get round to redoing the website